TOO LITTLE TOO LATE
I think I just saw my life flash before me. I'm freaking out internally at the moment. I, I want to just sit outside and cry. Okay, here's the deal. Since the diagnosis I have come to realize that I need to change things in my life. I am eating organically, still exercising regularly, and am reading up on certain herbs and supplements to take for the emphysema. I have been looking into places with better air quality that is more conducive for my condition and am researching some of that, which is exciting. Thing is what I REALLY want to do and have been looking into, is teaching English abroad. Have heard that you don't have to have a college degree so long as you complete the certification process. Apparently no more. I finally found the accurate site and information I've been looking for and found that while that may be true of in some countries, most countries are now requiring a "second degree"...you're BA/BS.
I suddenly feel old and freaked out. If I were to go to college full-time right now, I would be 37 by the time I graduated. However I can't go full-time, so that would put me in my 40's. And the cost to take one class even though community college is ridiculous and fucked up. There's something wrong with this place when classes with their books cost close to rent. I just don't think I can do it. I mean I could and be stuck with student loans for years to come like so many others I know, but I'd rather not.
Ugh. Why can't anything just work out perfectly and lead me to some glorious path I've been looking for? Yes, I know. That is why I like to sleep. It's much easier there sometimes.
I suddenly feel old and freaked out. If I were to go to college full-time right now, I would be 37 by the time I graduated. However I can't go full-time, so that would put me in my 40's. And the cost to take one class even though community college is ridiculous and fucked up. There's something wrong with this place when classes with their books cost close to rent. I just don't think I can do it. I mean I could and be stuck with student loans for years to come like so many others I know, but I'd rather not.
Ugh. Why can't anything just work out perfectly and lead me to some glorious path I've been looking for? Yes, I know. That is why I like to sleep. It's much easier there sometimes.
