CROSS YOUR EYES AND IT WILL BECOME CLEAR
There are few moments in life that I understand. I get the basics: food, water, shelter. I understand that we all need love, whether it be friends, family, or relationships. I have the basics, I have the family, I have the friends, and I've experienced great love. I get all that, but I still sit here confused and feeling like there's more.
Once I was reading a book that was discussing auras and how to see them. It said to sit outside at either dusk or dawn and to focus on the tops of the trees set against the sky as a background. After focusing for a bit, you were to slightly cross your eyes to change the focus and when done right, you will notice a faint light of white around the tops of the trees. After many attempts throughout the week each evening, I managed to see this. I was amazed at how altering your focus allowed you to see something that is always there, but we lose sight of.
I'm going through a rough patch in life lately. I'm confused, I feel stagnate, I feel ugly, I feel alone even when I'm surrounded by friends and laughter. Nothing in particular has set this off, I think it's just an accumulation of things. I don't want to dive into the depths of it all. It's going to get better, and I'm already better than where I was. But lately I'm seeing how life is like trying to see that aura around the trees. We struggle and struggle to see this thing, to find what we're looking for, but if we just slightly change our perspective we can see it. The myth becomes a reality.
I feel like my focus has slightly changed, but strange things are happening. Within days of me deciding on a moving date, I found that I am going to have to hold off for another few months at least. The last two weekends were spent in nature with dear friends. I laughed and relaxed, and sat there pondering if I really wanted to go. The bonds I have here with many of the people in my life are so intense that I wonder how I managed to be away from them for the three years I lived out of state. A sudden calm has taken over me at work, and I haven't been pissed all week, which is a miracle in and of itself. I shook a stranger's hand and had one of those POW moments where it's almost like your life flashing before you. It's as if you found something you'd lost, not necessarily that it be them, but maybe something they show you, or open your mind to. I knew in that moment that even if I never saw that person again, they would always be a brief and beautiful memory that I would never forget.
These things...I'm not sure how to describe it, but what we may see as normal day-to-day occurrences has suddenly taken on new meaning. I find myself looking around and taking more in. I'm trying to see past that tree line and see the aura. It feels like living in a story book and I'm anxious to see what happens on the next page.
Once I was reading a book that was discussing auras and how to see them. It said to sit outside at either dusk or dawn and to focus on the tops of the trees set against the sky as a background. After focusing for a bit, you were to slightly cross your eyes to change the focus and when done right, you will notice a faint light of white around the tops of the trees. After many attempts throughout the week each evening, I managed to see this. I was amazed at how altering your focus allowed you to see something that is always there, but we lose sight of.
I'm going through a rough patch in life lately. I'm confused, I feel stagnate, I feel ugly, I feel alone even when I'm surrounded by friends and laughter. Nothing in particular has set this off, I think it's just an accumulation of things. I don't want to dive into the depths of it all. It's going to get better, and I'm already better than where I was. But lately I'm seeing how life is like trying to see that aura around the trees. We struggle and struggle to see this thing, to find what we're looking for, but if we just slightly change our perspective we can see it. The myth becomes a reality.
I feel like my focus has slightly changed, but strange things are happening. Within days of me deciding on a moving date, I found that I am going to have to hold off for another few months at least. The last two weekends were spent in nature with dear friends. I laughed and relaxed, and sat there pondering if I really wanted to go. The bonds I have here with many of the people in my life are so intense that I wonder how I managed to be away from them for the three years I lived out of state. A sudden calm has taken over me at work, and I haven't been pissed all week, which is a miracle in and of itself. I shook a stranger's hand and had one of those POW moments where it's almost like your life flashing before you. It's as if you found something you'd lost, not necessarily that it be them, but maybe something they show you, or open your mind to. I knew in that moment that even if I never saw that person again, they would always be a brief and beautiful memory that I would never forget.
These things...I'm not sure how to describe it, but what we may see as normal day-to-day occurrences has suddenly taken on new meaning. I find myself looking around and taking more in. I'm trying to see past that tree line and see the aura. It feels like living in a story book and I'm anxious to see what happens on the next page.
