It is New Year's day and I've been sick as a dog today. No, I'm not hungover, but feel like I have the flu. I've been sleeping quite a bit today and just being a slug. The benefit of all my sluggishness though has been a lot of quiet time to think and reflect upon what I want out of this new year.
I always do New Year's resolutions, and last year accomplished a good chunk of them. I like having goals, but also remaining open to where life might take me and be willing to grab onto the moment when it presents itself, however life has been fairly low-key and mundane this year. A good year definitely, but more a year of acceptance, forgiveness and putting aside some big moments I'd rather never admit have happened. I think I've done a lot of growing and learning...some good some not so much. I think one of the biggest things I've learned recently is you can never say never.
I'm so strong in my convictions about really important things in my life...the type of person I want to be, my friends, my family, and anyone who's ever had to hear me mouth off knows this is also the case for politics. I can admit when I'm wrong, though you might have to be patient with me while I realize it. Thing is, I'm realizing that maybe we're all capable of becoming something we swore we never would. I have done many things I am not proud of, and changed those things. However, what do I do when a new batch is presented before me? I know who I am. Or I thought I did. I don't get this. I don't understand it and it kind of scares and confuses me.
I like who I am, but I'm surprised at myself lately. Am I just a free spirit, or a very confused soul, or am I both?
